I LOVE being a mom and I do have the most amazing kiddos ever!! The kids came into our room and surprised me with a digital picture frame (can you even believe I didn't have one?!) and 3 other framed pictures from our family photo shoot a couple of weeks ago. We spent the day being quite lazy - which was great for me and something I love to do sometimes!
Personally, I've never been much of a Mother's Day celebrator. When my mom was here, I felt like I told her I loved her and appreciated her and wanted to be like her all the time. I certainly didn't need a special day on the calendar to remind me to thank her...at least I think so. Which brings me to why Mother's Day is a mixed blessing for me. I love being a mom and I love that my husband celebrates me since the kids are too young to do it. I love that his mom is an incredible role model for both of us and one that we can continually consult when we need her, although she doesn't ever provide unwanted advice. I love that my sister and John's sister are both incredible moms - very different - but totally and completely where God wants them. I love that I'm surrounded by great mothers whom I'm honored to call my friends. But, I do miss my own mom terribly. My heart still aches with the emptiness she left, even though it was five years ago. I'm sorry that I can't ask her the million questions that come up every day and I'm sorry that I can't see her with her only grand-daughter and her three grand-sons. I'm sorry that she can't see what my sister and I have done with our lives and our families. I'm sorry that she can't be with my grandmother while she suffers with cancer (although if anyone can kick its a**, it's her!!). I'm sorry that I can't celebrate her life's victories and that she can't celebrate mine. I ache for the opportunity to tell her again how much I love her, how much I miss her and how much she's meant to me. Someday we'll be reunited and I take comfort in that. I want to make her proud of me and she left some VERY huge shoes to fill. She'll forever be a part of me and my children through her legacy. I love you mom!!
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You're making me cry at my desk and I already have contact issues without mascara dripping in my eyes. I have work to do today! ;-) Very sweet. You know I can understand that sentiment.
wow, cindy. blew me away with this one. i feel like i miss your mom, too. can't wait to meet that wonderful woman some day. she has got to be so darn proud of you and your sis.
in other news, la-la-loved seeing your new pup...i want to hear all about it. goodness gracious, that pup looks so cuddly.
the giraffe's tongue was quite amazing and i david's commentary was crackin me up. katherine's dance program was a really precious video.
keep up the good work, super mommy.
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No comment necessary to your exceptionally moving and meaningful post about Mother's Day--Carol celebrates every second with you as you continue to be the daughter, sister, wife, Mother and friend that you are---we all admire your strength and insight. Much love from your very proud mom-in-law.
Even though I cant relate explicitly, this post gave me another dimension in truly appreciating Mother's Day. Thank you for that. What a glorious time it will be when you see your Mom again.
Ok girl, I got WAY behind on your blog, can't for the life of me figure out WHY??? Oh yeah, maybe it's the 3 month old. . . .
But I am SO glad I just pulled this up and ready your Mother's Day post. Thank you for sharing this with all of us. Your mom is so proud of you, and I am too. David and Katherine are so blessed to have you as their mommy.
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